Who am I ??

Had a short but heated chat with R about that....Who am I to her..? Most of the times I am sure I am just a bother to her but sometimes she makes me feel cared for wanted. But then again as soon as her mood flips I am back to being nobody.. the mood flip even happens between a chat session...so R does keep me on toe. She was telling me how she is already bored of all her online pals and only 2 guys keep her interested...I was just thinking that for someone like that still to be talking to me after 4 years and a whole lot of pain ..I should mean something to her...In a strange sort of way it does give me a soothing feeling deep inside me. I guess it is trying to be in her good books that I take most effort in life then everything else...it is just so important to me after what I done to her...But I am sure me and God knows the reasons why all that happened did happen.....