Peaceful Life....

So R feels I take away the peace of her life... OK she is right but hmm I wish some day she would realize I was not always this person who took the peace from her life. I sure was not like this till Sept 2008 the time when just just started to drift away from me without telling me why she was doing it...and to my fault I was trying harder and harder to drag my self back in to her good books. I guess while trying to do that I have in more way then one ended up losing her more and as she put it taking away the peace from her life. A big chunk of my heart is down and out ...it says never to bother R again and take away her peace...but the other lil side is just needs her attention so bad. I hope and pray that the rationalism prevails and I am able to move on without disturbing R's peace. It is the best way to move forward atleast one of us would be delighted with that...right Vault?