Is it the same for everyone?

Just wondering dear Vault is this how everyone who fails to unite with his/her soul mate feels? I mean no matter how hard I try to treat R as just another person on chat I fail miserably. I do not feel I need anything from R but if she just types me few words every day it makes me feel over the moon and makes me positively radiant. But the downside is she has changed so much that she seems totally a different person from the person I loved and she normally talks to me without any feeling attached to the words. It is mostly as if I have forced her to waste her time talking to me when she could have talked to all her handsome Boy friends. I mean any normal person would have given up and just never bothered to look back at the past and hung on to R. But I cannot seem to do it no matter how hard I try. After few mins and hours of trying to not to bother her peace I would be running back to her like a pup behind a ball. How to change this ...how? :(