Don't Miss me...Don't Love me...

Those were the profound words from R this morning. I don't love her and I wont love her those were the words i told her. It was easy to say them. I would miss her a lot no matter what. I know I should not but then again if everything was meant to be like we wanted the World would have been such a perfect place. I know she talks to me because of pity she has for me and my condition. I am thankful to R for that but somewhere deep in my heart I pray that some day there would be a time or a moment when she would need me more then anyone else. I live in that hope.... just once Dear Vault...