Nalle Mood..aaa

Mirror.. You Know how hard I have controlled my craving for R as a woman. I totally have stopped thinking of how much she excites me because I know there is no chance that she would feel happy that I lusted for her. But once in a while it just becomes so difficult given my present life to not to think about the GOOODTIMES we shared in past. Frankly nothing in my life has matched even half of the excitement I had in THOSE days and nights with R....it was surreal and addictive. So when R said that it was raining while she was on her train ride back home and went Nallla mooodaaa..... that moment I lost all the control I had on myself and my hormones. I just went back to those days when R described what happens to her when she feels excited. All that made my throat go dry and my head..(;)...swell....well all did was make me stand under a cold shower for 35 mins!! I guess I have to get more in control of myself...