The Call...

Just wished goodnite to R and wished her sweet dreams...not before holding back lots of inner demons. R was tired and she said she would talk if I called but since I had already promised G that I won't ever call R again I held on to that promise. I know R is gonna be upset about it for some time say 5 seconds but then she won't mind. I realize more and more that from R's behavior that she has really been glad that we never became one. Yes I understand her reasons perfectly.. I lied to her about my hair...i never thought about letting her know my education details thinking it was not important and worst after what all she went through to convince her parents to say yes to me I ditched her. All that calls for capital punishment but she only stopped caring about me anymore. I have to live with it my mirror... have to live and move on keeping my feelings buried deep inside me....