Breathless and Empty.....

Last two days that has been my state. After Friday night...when we talked like we have never before..I was up most night thinking about You R. I was feeling that you are what I always desired but was afraid to wish for because I didnt think I would get someone as nice,sweeeeeeeeet,prettty & off God You make me breathless by the things you say.Lately the way we have been opening up our hearts to each other makes me feel this is how an Ideal couple should be.Full of trust & confidence in each other.I Promise u R..Love I wont break the trust you have in me.Whatever happens I would always wish well for you & your happiness is paramount for me.I look around & see wonderful guys ...I kinda wish sometimes I was better da for you sake.I dont want you to be ashamed of being with me.I promise you that once we are together we would be equal in all respect & I wont have this insecurity that eats me up sometimes now.I guess its because of THAT one past heartbreak in my life.It is taking so much time for me to get over it.I guess if only we had met for real by now I wont have been this insecure.But I trust u with all I am worth.I know you love me a lot other wise you wont have shared so much with me:X.I have somethings to tell you also.I feel good you know .. to feel for once in life that I have someone with whom i can share all my feelings without fear of being judged or disliked.While working out at the Gym and feeling dead tired nearing the End of 90 mins I would think about your lovely face & tell myself If I want her in my life do the remaining crunchs or the remaining pull ups.I know I am crazy...but I love being crazy about you R....I love you.....

This is the song I have been listening to earlier today..its By Beegees and its called "TO LOVE SOMEBODY" I can relate to it soo much nowadays baby thanks to you!!:X:X:X all over you sweet face.

There's a light
A certain kind of light
That never shone on me
I want my life to lived with you
Lived with you
There's a way everybody say
To do each and every little thing
But what does it bring
If I ain't got you, ain't got ?
You don't know what it's like, baby
You don't know what it's like

To love somebody
To love somebody
To love somebody
The way I love you

There's brain
I see your face again
I know my frame of mind
You ain't got to be so blind
And I'm blind, so very blind
I'm a man, can't you see
What I am
I live and breathe for you
But what good does it do
If I ain't got you, ain't got ?

..J..